You packed your room up except for this green sweater I bought for you, when you asked me to find you something cozy, you wore it for 3 weeks & refused to let me take it home and wash it for you.
With tears in my eyes, I told you I wish I could come get you and reminded you how strong you are & how much I loved you. I hung up the phone and my heart sank. I felt helpless that I could not rescue you. I could not save you. I couldn’t take all the pain away.
That was the last time:
I heard your sweet voice
I broke your code text messages
We talked about shopping
We giggled about stupid shit
The placed we wanted to go
We laughed so hard about dumpy pants
Made jokes about just taking left turns
Made plans to spend the summer together
Talked about camping, running, swimming hiking, and going to the beach.
It was the last time you said “I LOVE YOU SIS”
I asked you to call me back, but you never did.
I had packed another hospital bag to come back and stay, I never wanted to leave your side again. I
That same night/early morning , I held your hand, kissed your sweet face & told you I loved you and watched you take your last breath.
Thank you, Kristy, for letting me just love you. Thank you for letting me be your sister and friend. I am so grateful for 33 yrs I got to spend with you & especially the last three weeks of your life.
You left this world entirely to early, but I hold on to; you were the brave one to go first. Your story will save another life. It will allow another family from experiencing the pain and grief of losing a loved one. It will help remind others how precious life is.
Please help me find the strength to be your voice, to share with the world how incredible women you are. You are strong, your strength taught me to be strong. You will always be my greatest teacher. I am a part of you.
Life can be cruel, my heart will never be the same. Living in this world without you big sister is hard. Even though I can’t pick up the phone & call or give you a hug you will forever be in my heart. Fly free sweet sister fly free.